Some days I just feel like I’m going to end up alone and lonely. 

I hate all my friends. Especially most of them that have graduated. I didn’t realize how vain, fake, and bitchy all them really are until I graduated, and haven’t seen them in a while. I can’t believe I was friends with them in the first place. I guess that’s high school for you. 

 When I posted something saying, “I miss you. I miss the old you,” and you asked if it was about you, I lied. It was. Truth is, I miss the old you every single day. 

When younger guys flirt with me, I flirt with them back because I like the attention. 

I can’t believe you’ve forgotten about me already.

 I’m a huge movie fan, and adore them very much. I think I really enjoy watching so many movies, since it gives me an escape from my reality. My life is so boring, that when I watch movies, I like to pretend that the movie is actually happening to me.

 My friends can be complete asses to other people, and I feel sympathetic towards the people they choose as their source of entertainment. I also feel guilty, and some what responsible for their actions, since I’m joining in with their laughter. These friends of mine are the most caring, and nicest people I know, that’s why I’m friends with them, but sometimes they do little mean things, which make me feel guilty towards others. They don’t do mean things daily, but once in a while they’ll be tools for entertainment. Sometimes, I’ll tell them to stop, and they will, but other times I’ll keep quiet, which makes me feel like a coward. 

 I’m jealous of my friends who went off to University, and I’m still stuck in high school. I hate the fact that they’re out partying, while I’m home on a school night. I hate high school.

I’m a seventeen year old girl in my senior year in high school, and still a virgin. Still being a virgin is becoming a burden, since I’m constantly thinking about it. They say that losing your virginity is more important if you’re a girl, than if you’re a guy. At this point, I wish I had already lost it. I just don’t want to lose it to anyone. I want to lose it to someone that I actually love, and deserves it. I guess being a virgin makes me feel unloved, since I have yet to find someone I would even consider losing it to.  

I’m still fucking pissed and will never forget that my best friends didn’t believe me when I said that I was raped. They told me to keep my mouth shut so that I wouldn’t ruin his future, so that I wouldn’t hurt the filthy little boy that gave me a fat lip, bruised wrists (both of which she saw) and took away the only thing that I still believed involved true love. For that, I will never call them my friends again.